he's gone

Now that he is gone...
i don't know what to write....
it's like the biggest single motivational factor of my life has just....evaporated.......

i feel ... empty...
incomplete....
alone,,,
ditched....


we had been through hell together...
"hell"...
stood by eachother
no matter what....
i could face the world..
cuz i knew he was there..by me always...but now ...that he's gone....


>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>.


when he was sad, i cried
but hid my tears and cheered him up
when he smiled , my heart lept with unbound joy...
when he looked at me....i blushed...
we dreamt...i knew we'd always be there like this forever...

but...


............he left me midway
....

......and i .... i don't even know what to say.....


there something gone ... my heart feels weird...
laid down...empty....
my thoart is dry
and eyes are parched....

i close my eyes and i see
all the times....all those times...
the smiles, the jokes...the closeness...
the tears...the support...the love...
the faith...the trust...the hope...
the dreams....

oh my god....

he's gone

and well....that is the truth...
something i won't be able to accept for a long time...

i'll look back...wishing to see he is still there
i'll call....hoping he'll answer
i'll smile...imagining him return it....

even though i know he'll never be back...

he is an intergral part of me...
destiny cannot separate us
neither time divide....

i know he's gone
and the emptiness will be impossible to fill

but i'll have to smile...
because
he would want me to...
just like he always did...

we never knew what sorrow was
though we had been through diificult times...
and now....only i'll know what sorrow....kinda unfair, isn't it???
but mine is the heart that knew love
mine is heart that breathed love
mine is the heart that lived.....loved....
and with him in it....come sorrow...come whatever...
this heart will always beat,,,....with love....